Today I got an email from E telling me how she, R and baby S went to the zoo with a mutual friend of ours, his wife and their son, and E's sister and her two kids.
It's so weird how mundane news like this can put me in a funk for an entire day. Just reading her email made me so sad.
Then the sadness from this creeps into all of the other crap that's going on. I spent the entire day freaking out about how negative I am at work. I've told three people so far that I'm looking for a new job. That was probably really stupid, but I just can't keep it in. I feel like I am completely out of control at work. I am negative, I complain all the time, and I'm wandering around aimlessly trying to do work, but because work is so f*cked up, I can't get anything done because I'm constantly waiting on other people. This makes me complain more about how awful it is to work there.
I know that I am wasting away in this place, but all I can think about is how there is no job that I would like right now, and that I've had 3 jobs in the last year. Nobody is going to want to hire me. I don't know what I want to do, and I don't even know how to get a job that I might like at this point.
Should I be a sub? Should I just work at a retail store? Should I temp? I don't know how to figure out what I should do.
I do have a meeting with a recruiter on Thursday morning.