We met with the RE yesterday. We are going ahead with the micro-dose flare protocol. I have been on BCPs for a week now, so I have about two weeks before I start injections again. This time, it's twice a day. The antagonist protocol I was on last time was for 'poor responders' too, and I didn't respond well to that one, so I'm not sure what will happen, but Mary Ellen and a knitting friend of mine both had good responses to the micro-dose protocol, so we shall see. I remain both skeptical and fearful.
I also asked about donor insemination. The RE said that there's no great reason why I should do a medicated protocol since I've been pregnant on my own before. I mentioned how I got pregnant right after going off BCPs and asked if I should self medicate that way, and he thought that was a good idea. He referred us to a couple clinics that will do a donor IUI for $200 (plus the cost of sperm, which is around $500 - $1000). I don't expect insurance to cover this, so that seems like a good deal to me.
I also think we will try on our own once or twice before we move on to donor sperm. After all, we could get pregnant the regular way. It's happened to people with a bt before. You just never know, and I feel we should try at least one more time on our own before moving on to donors.
T is sad about all of this, naturally. I remain numb. I feel like I have given up hope that we will have a (dually) biological child. I feel ready to move on, and the idea that a donor cycle is probably 6 months away for us is driving me a little crazy. But if we're doing another IVF cycle and we're trying on our own first, that's what it's going to be, especially if I'm going to go on the pill to try to self medicate myself.
I keep telling myself that one day all of this will be over, and we will have our kids (kid?) and we'll just have scars, but it's really difficult to imagine that right now.
Life as an adoptive family.
My Story
- Rachel
- 4 miscarriages, 3 failed IVFs with PGD, 2 different sperm donors, 1 diagnosis of balanced translocation. Now we are the proud parents of a boy via domestic infant semi-open adoption. We had a failed match for kid #2 and are now matched again.
5 comments:
I really hope that you don't have to worry about doing a donor cycle, Rachel. I hope that this new protocol is the answer for you. Though I can understand how you'd feel the way you're feeling right now.
Hugs and love to you right now. One step at a time, right?
i hope this new protocol is the magic bullet.
that six month wait would make me a little crazy too. i hope it doesn't get that far. wishing you the best!
I too am spending more time thinking about potential treatment/options for the future than the treatment I will be going through very soon. I feel very similarly about going through my FET cycles: I've (not willingly) given up hope for the cycles to work on the one hand, but they also represent possibily the last chance to a dual biological child. Even though the treatment is slightly different from previous cycles (in your case a new protocol, in my case having blasts), previous similar cycles haven't worked, so why should this one? It's just so hard to go through, yet so hard not to go through.
I wish you all the best and will be following your progress.
Could you let me know what drugs the protocol will actually use? I am also a poor responder and I am trying to figure out how I want to do my next cycle.
I really hope that this cycle does the trick. And you won't need to worry about anything else.
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