Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Another eventful day in the life of Rachel

I gave my notice at work today. I finally had it. I have a co-worker who is a bit of a b!tch, and she sent me a scathing email for supposedly making a tiny mistake. I'm still not convinced I'm the one that made the mistake, but that's sort of beside the point. As you probably recall, I've been hating my job for some time now, so I finally just decided to call it quits. As I'm only working part time now, I figured temping will give me just as much money if not more, and at least I can know that each job is only temporary. I just couldn't stand the negative vibes at that place any more. So, I'm hoping my last day is Aug 24, but we shall see. Now that I have given my notice, I do feel a great weight lifted from my shoulders. I know it's the right thing to do.

That being said, I still feel like sh!t about my work situation. I'm lucky in that T makes a good income, and if mine isn't steady we won't go bankrupt and lose our house. And I also know that I help us as a couple by organizing everything, cooking and doing most of the cleaning, taking care of the laundry and other general household stuff. I know that is not nothing. But I still feel guilty not having some sort of reasonable income. I mean, I have a Master's Degree for god's sake. I should be able to have some sort of reasonable job. But my last two jobs have been so crappy. It's made dealing with all of this IF stuff even worse because I have no calm time. I feel like I've made poor choices for myself, even though much of what has happened has been beyond my control. I am going to try really hard to not take a job unless I'm absolutely sure that it's right for me this time. In the mean time, I will temp or find some sort of shit job of some sort. I know my sanity is of utmost importance, but I have a guilt problem. I can find a way to feel guilty about anything.

I'm lucky in that T is so supportive of me. He knows that my job has been eating me up, and I showed him the emails from the b!tch co-worker, and he agreed with me that it was time to give my notice. I know it is the right thing for me, but I do worry about my future with work. Maybe temping will help me find something I can live with for a little while.

11 comments:

My Reality said...

Congrats on giving your notice at work. You are braver than I am in this regard. I just get up everyday and go to a job I hate.

I hope this is just the beginning of good things happening for you.

Drowned Girl said...

Sounds like a very good move!

Jessica at Bwlchyrhyd said...

I have got a BFA and when applying for secretarial jobs when we were living in London I was told that I wasn't qualified! I don't think there's necessarily any correlation between your MA and your place in the job market... This is half of why we are living out here now but that's another story...

topcat said...

I hear you! My work has fallen quite by the wayside lately - all of my energy is being taken up by IVF. I keep joking that I've become a 50's housewife .. oops! Good on you for quitting. Good luck. :)

Samantha said...

That's a hard decision to make, I'm glad T is supporting you. You've certainly been struggling with this job for some time, so I hope leaving it will give you a needed stress-reliever.

Something will be out there for you.

ultimatejourney said...

Congrats on quitting. My other half says T must love you more than I love him, because I didn't give him the green light to quit his job which has recently turned sour. I told him you've been putting up with a crappy situation for much longer than he has. (Not to mention that my income only goes so far without his...)

I can understand why you're frustrated about your work situation. Finding the right job match is a lot harder than people make it sound when you're growing up. And it requires energy you just don't have when you're battling IF.

If I were in your position of probably being a full-time mom relatively soon, I would probably do some temping and put my extra energy into identifying what I want to do long-term and what I need to do to be ready to make that move once I'm ready to go back to work after kids. But I know that's easier said than done when you want to prove to yourself that you can find a good job.

Trace said...

Glad you feel relief!! It's nice when weight gets lifted.

Reproductive Jeans said...

Yahoooo to giving your notice! Sounds like this is the best choice for you.

Erin said...

Wow - congrats! Today is my last day at my crappy job and I'm about to re-enter the fabulous world of temping myself. We are definitely both luck to have such great husbands, but I know what you mean about wanting to contribute to the household income...

Good luck!!

LIW (Lady In Waiting) said...

You know that *I* understand your situation all too well. After I left my job and didn't work for a month was so hard. But there were some good parts to it, too. T being supportive will help. And you *deserve* to take some time and nurture yourself.

XOXOXO

gold star said...

Congrats on quitting. A few close friends and family members have recently quit their jobs and wandered off to various parts of the world. They are now deeply happy, and I'm jealous.

Thanks for posting on my blog. I look forward to following your story.