My b00bs have been hurting for about a week now. I keep waiting for it to go away. I think that has started finally today. I believe they are hurting a little bit less. This feels somewhat backwards as my b00bs usually begin to hurt right about now -- somewhere between 7 and 10 dpo. I'm not exactly sure when I ovulated so I don't exactly know where I am now. If I ovulated later, as I suspect, my chances of actually being pregnant are pretty low. I am on the progesterone which may be making my b00bs sore, but I continue to take it so why would it stop now?
Again, I spend so much of my time analyzing and wishing I could just forget about it. But I can't.
Yesterday at work on of my cube neighbors asked me when there were going to be some T juniors walking around. I shrugged. He pushed a bit more. I said some more non-committal things. A third co-worker was nearby and said something to the effect of, 'It looks like she doesn't want to talk about it.' I was pleasantly surprised by this comment. I wonder if his life has been touched in some way by infertility. He is getting married this weekend, so maybe he has just endured similar questions in a way he didn't enjoy. I finally said, 'Can we talk about something else?' Part of me wanted to blurt something, but I really, really want people at work to know as little as possible about my infertility. I just feel really private about it there. I don't want work to know anything.
Then on the way home it was raining and I mentioned an open window in a guest bedroom. Carpoolie managed to say, "Oh, I remember having a guest bedroom. Not anymore!' All this woman talks about is her children as she reads Parents magazine in my front seat every day. I try to be understanding, but I wanted to smack her after she said that.
Sigh. Maybe today will be a better day.