There are a couple of people out there in cyberland who just had/are having embryo transfers, and I first want to send positive vibes their way so that transfers end in pregnancies, and happiness and health to everyone.
I am very much looking forward to the weekend. I have been slacking off at home and there is laundry to do, leaves to rake, bathrooms to scrub, etc. I will be seeing my pregnant friend this evening, and I don't think I'm feeling much trepidation about it, but I think there is something in the back of my mind that feels uneasy. Because she and her husband had their own issues getting pregnant, she is very sensitive about not making me feel uncomfortable, which is good. But I also don't want to feel like she has to tiptoe around her belly, so to speak. I hope I don't act too distant or anything.
Sunday we are going to dim sum with other friends. We haven't had real Chinatown dim sum in ages and I'm very excited about it. The rest of the weekend will be devoted to cleaning, organizing and perhaps some of the dreaded biostatistics. I'm hopefull that I will feel motivated this weekend. Last weekend I could basically only sit around the house and mourn. I worry that the pattern will continue, but I really don't want it to. I want to be a happy person. I want to fix up our house nicely and not freak out about the mess if someone happens to drop by. I guess it's good to have small goals like that. We have to do something to bide our time until May 18.
Of couse, between now and then are mother's day and my birthday. I'm going to be 34. I'm trying not to think too much about that. I know 34 isn't the worse case scenario. I know there are people ttc into their 40s. I feel like if we are able to get a good quality embryo, our chances are good. But I still hate birthdays.