Thursday, June 04, 2009

feeling like crap

Maybe it's PMS, but I'm feeling like crap lately. I'm sad all the time again. Every time I login to F@ceb00k I see pictures of children. Some babies, but mostly toddlers and older. These are all my high school friends.

I'm just exhausted. I feel like this is never going to happen and that none of this is worth it. My job is going crappy. I mean, I do a fine job, but there's mostly not enough work and my boss really, really sucks.

I love the dog, and I would be so much worse without him. He's probably the reason I can keep going these days. But everything just feels like it sucks completely.

T isn't happy with his job, mine is unfulfilling and all we do is just get older.

I'm having a bad week. Everywhere I turn it's all about children and babies. I can't even read the fucking comics without a family being involved. I feel like I can't do anything without being reminded of our situation.

Thank goodness for this:

7 comments:

Mountain Girl said...

I can totally relate! I LOVE my furbabies and they are what keep going. Meanwhile, my marriage sucks and I have many thoughts about leaving - however, there are a few reasons why I shouldn't. (including my little 10 week old cocker puppy!)

Kelly said...

I so understand. Love your doggie and hang in there. It WILL get better. (That's what I tell myself.)

Hopeful Mother said...

I'm sorry that you're feeling so down. I'm glad your new puppy is around to help brighten your spirits.

Somewhat Ordinary said...

He is such a cutie! My dogs have always helped me keep my sanity. Keep your chin up.

Natalie said...

What a cutie he is, looks like he's settling right in to the family. I think I see in his eyes a lot of joy and contentment, like he's exactly where he should be, where he never thought he could be. It's so wonderful.

I'm sorry you're feeling so down lately. It's everywhere, isn't it.... there is no where to get away.

RB said...

B-Dog is beautiful! I love seeing pics of him. The emotional rollercoaster continues post infertility too and it sucks. Hang in there...

Brenna said...

Bdog's eyes are so beautiful. My two dogs (rescue mutts, yay for rescue doggies!) are the lights of my life. I don't know what I'd do without them some days. We have a Rottie mix and an Irish Wolfhound mix.