I've been feeling kind of funny lately.
The inauguration was great. I still can't believe it's real. It hasn't sunk in yet.
But aside from that, I'm just feeling funny. Things have gotten better since I stopped driving what my friend S labeled as the "think tank."
But then I got hit by that other car. I'm working with insurance to clear this up.
I got a good, new job a while back. But it still doesn't start til March 1. Waiting for it to start is really difficult. I'm not doing as well as I had in my old job. But I do have this new job waiting and they're not going to take it away. And I do have assignments, but my current job is so busy that I can't really work on the new stuff.
And I haven't done any adoption anything lately. We're still thinking of going with that facilitator, but it doesn't make sense to sign up until I change around our Dear Birthmother book, and I just haven't been able to do it. I both don't want to do it and have other projects I'm working on that have very finite deadlines, so I work on those and not the book.
But with all of this going on, I still just sort of feel empty inside. I see people having babies, and I see the babies grow up, and I see the children looking like their parents and I just feel empty.
I drive to work and I feel empty.
I know I should go talk to someone again, but my job has absolutely no flexibility, and I'm just trying to hold out until I have my new job which does have flexibility.
I really, really need a vacation, and we just bought tickets to go to FL on the 21st of Feb.
I just hope I can make it through until then. When I come back my new job will start. Meanwhile, I'm just trying to be patient.