Thursday, December 28, 2006


Well, it's true. I'm pregnant.

I'm in such denial. T wants me to have blood tests to see if my HCG numbers are doubling. I'm afraid to do that. I don't want to have a D&C and I don't want to walk around knowing I've miscarried and waiting for it to take care of itself.

We are going to Mexico on Jan 9. Do I need to do anything before then? Do I have to do anything special while I'm there? I hope I don't have some sort of medical emergency while I'm there.

I'm sort of freaking out about this. Our IVF will definitely be delayed. I know that sounds kind of stupid, but I just feel so sure that this pregnancy won't work out. I know there is a chance that it will, but I just can't have any hope about it right now. I'm kind of in denial about it.

I really don't have many symptoms. I feel some twinges. My b00bs are only very slightly sore. I'm a little more tired than usual, I think. But maybe I'm just making it all up.

I guess I have to call the OB at some point. I figure that by Tuesday I'll be ready to do it. That makes sense, right?


Heather said...

I hope you have a super trip with no emergencies.

I can see why you don't want the test or to know anything right now. It is all so scary.

I hope everything works out.

Hoping said...

I understand why you don't want to call the OB or anything BUT you really should. It will make your trip to Mexico better either way because not knowing is horrible.

Hope is such a bitch I know, but still, this pregnancy very well could be IT.

Good luck!