Thursday, June 30, 2011

I feel like I should post

I've been thinking about my abandoned blog lately. I don't feel like blogging anymore, obviously. I am busy parenting and I'm not sure I have any useful insights about adoptive parenting or parenting in general or whatever.

We never heard from CC and O. about the potential next baby. I will call them within the next month or two, but I no longer think this will happen. It bums me out a little, but it's fine. Regardless, we need to complete our paperwork for kid #2. Doing so while parenting is proving more challenging than anticipated. It's also bringing back some emotions I thought I was rid of. I'm angry that I have to do all this paperwork. I'm annoyed that I need to have a notary to have a kid. I'm frustrated by the financial aspect of this all.

I need to put aside some time to fill out the paperwork, but I'm just having a difficult time. I need a kickstart.

On the positive side, I have the absolutely best almost 2 year old ever in the whole wide world. Really, that's objectively true. His grandmothers agree with me, so it must be.


Sue said...

Wow - almost 2? Time flies. I can't believe what a big and adorable boy you have.

Scrappy_Lady said...

Being busy being a parent is a good thing and I'm very happy for you. I'll be the first to admit I've been missing you lately, hoping you'd be posting soon. But, I can understand some of why you might be feeling like stopping the blog.

I wish you only the best, and hope that kiddo #2 is a wonderful addition to your family.

Gil said...

Such a handsome little guy. Thank you for posting an update, even if posting isn't quite where you want to be right now. I feel like that most of the time too; my posts are usually only for myself these days. But I think it's a cycle. You may want to return to blogging more frequently later... you know, when your time isn't so tied up! LOL
Wishing all of you the best!

P said...

Rachel -- I totally understand how hard it is to complete the paperwork for baby #2. You probably don't remember me, but we "met" on the balanced translocation yahoo group and you were kind enough to share your insurance letter with us in hopes of getting IVF with PGD covered. Our paths are so similar that it's just crazy. I have followed your blog for years and think about you often, but I never really post anything. We tried 4 rounds of IVF with PGD, numerous donor sperm IUI's and nothing ever worked. We adopted our son just over 2 years ago and have been so happy and consumed with him. It literally took us 9 months to complete our 2nd profile, but we just turned it in yesterday. It feels like a major weight lifted, but it puzzles me as to why it was so difficult this time. I suspect it had something to do with not having the same sense of urgency since we do have a child. Maybe that has something to do with how you are feeling too? I highly recommend finishing it though...I can't tell you how good I feel knowing that huge task is completed. Good luck. :)