Nervous

Feeling scared and nervous today. I haven't had a real conversation with N for over a week. She missed her last two doctor's appointments, according to our attorney.

I had two brief voice contacts with her and one today with B, the expectant dad. He answered her cell phone. She clearly didn't want to talk to me, but he sounded like he felt bad that she hadn't called me back at all.

I'm figuring that if they were backing out that he wouldn't have answered the phone at all.

The attorney did have contact with N as well. She said she hasn't been feeling well. B told me that they were about to do laundry and were just very busy.

I don't need to have a long conversation. I just need to know that they are doing ok and that everything is still on track. I need to be sure they haven't decided to back out. If they don't want to talk to me, I understand. That is fine. But if they are thinking of parenting, I hope that they would tell us.

I'm freaking out a bit. I think that she might just be not feeling well and not in a good emotional place, which is completely understandable. But I am still worried.