My beta was 13.2. Dammit, that's not what I was expecting. I feel like I'd rather have a flat out negative. But oh, well. Now I simply need to be bothered to go in for another damn blood test on Tuesday morning. I also drank 2 margaritas last night and got pretty happy. I'm sure it doesn't matter, but it makes me freak out a little none-the-less.
So, this is something that is a first on our journey. Something new. A chemical pregnancy. I just hope it's below 5 on Tuesday. Maybe that's why they're having me come in on Tuesday, in the hopes that I won't have to come back if on Monday it's still over 5. Sigh. 13.2.
Life as an adoptive family.
My Story
- Rachel
- 4 miscarriages, 3 failed IVFs with PGD, 2 different sperm donors, 1 diagnosis of balanced translocation. Now we are the proud parents of a boy via domestic infant semi-open adoption. We had a failed match for kid #2 and are now matched again.
13 comments:
Rachel I'm so sorry. You don't deserve any more torment.
Hoping you're feeling better soon.
Damn... I hate chemicals. I am sorry you are having to go through this.
Crap. I'm really sorry.
woah! as you say, not expected and, I agree, harder to deal with in some ways than a flat out negative. But... if there is any positive to be had out of this I guess it bodes better for the future in that the new sperm can fertilise your eggs. Also, although having a forced break because of the insurance etc is frustrating maybe, a break from all the drugs, will be a good thing and will allow the perfect egg/s to come forward when you try next year. I'm hoping for you that this is the beginning of the end of this horrible journey and that next time will be the start of all things good that you deserve.
Clare
Damnit. :( I'm sorry.
I am sorry, Rachel. I think a chemical is worse than a negative.
Damn it, Rachel! You have just gotten no good news this year. I am so sorry you keep having to deal with all this crap. I was so hoping it would be easy for you guys once you started with the donor sperm. Geeesh, IF really isn't fair.
I hope that your next test shows below 5 and you can start next year off on the right foot.
So Srry to hear this news! The New Year will be it!!! And the other poster is right, now you know this donor will work.
I'm sorry. I was so hoping for good news. Better things are to come. I can just feel it.
I'm sorry--that really really really sucks. Thinking about you, sweetie.
Crap. I am so sorry.
I've been there. Sorry you're in chemical limbo.
F.
This stinks. I'm really sorry.
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