School Troubles

Henry has been having real trouble in school. He was asked to reduce the number of days he attends because other parents are complaining about his behavior and he is disrupting the entire class.

This morning when I dropped him off, we talked about making good choices. He should do 2 things.

1) Listen to the teachers
2) Keep his hands to himself

As he talked about making good choices at school while we were still in the car, his eyes started to well up with tears.

This is the first time I've seen signs from him that he wants to make good choices but is having a difficult time doing so. I asked him if it was difficult and he said no. I was hoping he might say yes, but he could just be afraid to say that.

I ask him all the time how we can help him make good choices, but he always says he doesn't know.

My poor boy is really struggling and I don't know how to help him. I don't want him to feel bad about himself. He is truly a wonderful kid. He is doing great in the integrated special ed school. This school where he is having trouble is just not set up for a kid like him.

I am at a crossroads and I don't know what to do.

Still waiting for the glasses to come in.

We haven't filled out the paperwork for the new adoption attorney. I just don't have time with all that is going on with Henry.

I am exhausted.

Glasses

Just got back from the opthomologist. H needs glasses. He has Amblyopia. He's essentially blind in his right eye. He needs glasses and partial patching. 

I am stunned. I had no idea. 

Better morning

He had a better morning. I am going to check out the book recommended. He is too young for an ADD/ADHD diagnosis, but he has an IEP and goes to the integrated preschool with Speech Therapy and Functional Behavior therapy and I take him to OT.

I guess I'm going to try this diet thing to see if I can find out anything. I'm a little scared of it, but my MIL mentioned we should try it a while back.

Non compliant

Some days, like today, I truly believe it was a blessing in disguise that our adoption fell through. I don't think I could handle H and an infant. He generally won't do anything he is asked to do. It is not just me. It's his aunts and uncles, his friend parents, his teachers, his grandparents, everyone.

He is currently having a tantrum about taking a shower. Everything with him is a power struggle. Nothing is more important to him than winning or getting his way. 

No one has really been able to help. The behavioral person the Schools sent over just recommended sticker charts. Those worked for a few weeks, but he has lost interest. Nothing seems to motivate him to do as I ask. Not candy, not the iPad, not TV. 

It is incredibly difficult to parent a child like this. I feel like I have no control. I cannot get places on time. I am constantly feeling like I'm going to cry. I yell. I resent... I don't know what I resent, but I resent something. I am so angry. I need help but I feel like I can't find it. 

Sometimes, like today, I feel like I don't know what I'm going to do.